Very last time....

And she wept and closed her eyes for the very last time....
A perfectly broken soul... for many a year she has been left alone, in amptiness bthe one she has ever truly wanted,
He has moved on, living his life in the most normal of ways,
She too has become ordinary and normal because she knows that the amazing part of her life has well and truly past,
The thought of him has left her once agn defenceless to the power he still holds over her...

And she wept and closedher eyes for the very last time...

My very first love song....

I've never written a love song, that didn't end in tears
Maybe you reran mt ove song if you can replace my fears,
I need your patience and guidness and all your loving and more
With under rows to my life, will you be able to weather the storm?
There is so much I would give you
If I'd only let myself
There's a swell of emotions that I feel I must protect,
What's the point of this armour, if it keeps the love away too?
I'd rather bleed because of love than live without any storms
Can I trust this or do all things end?
I need to hear that you'd die for me again and again and again,
So tell me, look into my eyes can you share all the pain and happy times?

This is my very first love song that didn't end in tears,
I think I rewrote my love song for the rest of my years...

Folia...

Que noite para dançar, sabes que sou uma máquina da dança
Com fogo nos ossos
E o doce sabor do querosene
Perco-me no eio da noite e não quero descer
Enfrentar a perda de coisa boa que encontrei

Na escuridão da noite ouço-te a chamar por mim
Com o mais duro de corações, ainda me sinto cheia de dor
Por isso bebo, fumo e pregunto se alguma vez estás por perto apesar de ter sido eu quem nos arruinou,
Vês que o tempo que partilhámos era precioso
Mas durante todo esse tempo sonhei com folia

Vou correr como uma rio junto à montanha
Com o vento nas minhas costas
Apenas reconhece que sempre foste tu quem me teve,
Mas o demónio em mim sempre foi melhor amigo desde o início...

Todo o tempo sonhei em folia...

Suicídio da solidão...

Já está na hora das sombras me chamarem
Dispo a minha mente e atrevo-te a seguí-lo
Pinta um retrato do meu mistério
Fecho os olhos e aqui estás comigo
Uma cara sem nome que penso ver
Sentada a observar as ondas que me rodeiam até elas desaparecerem
Um coração que juro conhecer é feita dos meus próprios dispositivos
Estarei errada?

O tempo que demorei
Rezo que não tenha sido desperdiçado
Será que já provei o meu pedaço de puro amor?

Noites sem dormir tu rastejas dentro de mim
Pinta as tuas sombras na respiração que partilhamos
Tiras mais do que apenas a minha sanidade
Tiras a minha razão de preocupar
Não precisarei de asas normais
O próprio céu me levará a ti
As coisas que sonho que posso fazer
Abrirei a lua por ti

O tempo que demorei
Rezo que não o tenha desperdiçado
Pronta e a espera de um coração que vale a pena quebrar
Mas eu me contentaria com um erro honesto, em nome de
Um puro amor

Aprecie a tristeza para amenizar a dor
Como eu faço, não olho, não toco, não faço nada
Apenas fico com a esperança que existe apenas tu

A terra que é o espaço entre nós,
Bani-lo-ei debaixo de mim... para chegar a ti
O teu amor inesperado fornece o suicídio da minha solidão..

Quem me dera saber...

Leaving once more...

Today, yet again, I leave them all behind for the second time around,
Time has passed by in a flash but the moments spent with them all shall last forever,
Until my return in a year I wish them, as I always have, that they stay the same and not change too much,
I wish them the best of luck in their own adventures and hope to see them soon,
They have marked my life in the most positive of ways and for that I shall always be thankful,
They are the men in my life and it's thanks to them that I know they will always be around for me just as I shall always be around for them,
The distance between us now will get bigger as the days go by,
And I suppose that's what kills me most... but I hope that time will pass by quicker than ever now and that soon enough we'll be together again and mark another stepping stone in our lives,
As another year goes by, we get older, a little wiser and we grow up together like we have done since we met,

I'm grateful I met them and grateful they are a part of my life just as I am part of theirs...

To my friends who I cherish more than anything... I will miss you more than ever this time... Good bye for now and hope to see you soon...

I cried last night...

Last night I cried,
I cried for you,
I cried for me,
I cried for us,

The thought of everything I once had has once again made its way to the forfront of my mind,
God only knows why this still happens to me and how it affects me during this time of year,

I guess it's our way of knowing how important it is what we lost,
I'm guessing its God's way of letting me know how important you are and always will be in my life,
And how I will never be able to let go of the thought of you and of what we once had,

The thought of us,
After all this time,
Wow... I never thought I would still think of it this way, nor did I ever imagine that after all this time, certain things still affect me the way they do,

For now I leave the thought of you here,
And, as it has always been since then, next year I will come back and cry again at the thought of it all....

Both ways...

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev'rywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev'ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living ev'ry day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all