Leaving once more...

Today, yet again, I leave them all behind for the second time around,
Time has passed by in a flash but the moments spent with them all shall last forever,
Until my return in a year I wish them, as I always have, that they stay the same and not change too much,
I wish them the best of luck in their own adventures and hope to see them soon,
They have marked my life in the most positive of ways and for that I shall always be thankful,
They are the men in my life and it's thanks to them that I know they will always be around for me just as I shall always be around for them,
The distance between us now will get bigger as the days go by,
And I suppose that's what kills me most... but I hope that time will pass by quicker than ever now and that soon enough we'll be together again and mark another stepping stone in our lives,
As another year goes by, we get older, a little wiser and we grow up together like we have done since we met,

I'm grateful I met them and grateful they are a part of my life just as I am part of theirs...

To my friends who I cherish more than anything... I will miss you more than ever this time... Good bye for now and hope to see you soon...

I cried last night...

Last night I cried,
I cried for you,
I cried for me,
I cried for us,

The thought of everything I once had has once again made its way to the forfront of my mind,
God only knows why this still happens to me and how it affects me during this time of year,

I guess it's our way of knowing how important it is what we lost,
I'm guessing its God's way of letting me know how important you are and always will be in my life,
And how I will never be able to let go of the thought of you and of what we once had,

The thought of us,
After all this time,
Wow... I never thought I would still think of it this way, nor did I ever imagine that after all this time, certain things still affect me the way they do,

For now I leave the thought of you here,
And, as it has always been since then, next year I will come back and cry again at the thought of it all....

Both ways...

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev'rywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev'ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living ev'ry day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

O Fim...

Aqui estamos... mais uma aventura a acabar,
Um ano passou com altos, baixos, bons e maus momentos....

Macau é um mundo...
Na partica é apenas uma ilhazita ligada a china... digamos que é uma espécie de irmão rafeiro da China...
Cheio de multi etnias... pessoas de todo o mundo veem cá parar...
Os dias são quentes e as noites também...
De dia parece apenas mais uma cidade pacata na Ásia... mas de noite torna-se numa cidade de pecados....
Parece que todos os pecados capazes de serem concretizados, são concretizados aqui...
O pior é que uma pessoa nem sequer dá por isso...
Noites de vadiagem, dias de anhanço...

Macau... No meio de tudo, tão perto de tudo mas ao mesmo tempo longe de tudo que consideramos casa...
18.000 kilómetros de tudo e todos, de uma maneira ou outra lá conseguimos distrair-nos para que o tempo passasse mais rápido...

Agora na etapa final parece que de repente o tempo abrandou...
Tanta pressa para tudo e mais alguma coisa, mas agora que o mais importante está para chegar, a nossa partida, o tempo nunca mais passa...

O regresso a casa está a chegar, as férias vão saber bem mas não tarda a vontade de voltar não anima nada...
Por enquanto, aqui fico com pensamentos positivos e a ânsia de voltar para casa....

Home....

Good enough...

Let's say I'm feeling better
Let's say I'm feeling fine
Let's say I gave you all I had
And now I'm out of time
And my best wasn't good enough

And now this time to wonder
Now this time to heal
Time to let it all come down
But I don't know what I feel

But it aches and it hurts and it burns
Oh it kills me

Tick, tock, you don't stop
You don't fade
You just stay
But I'll do it all again

Now you don't call me baby
Just don't pretend you care
Save your sorry for yourself
When Judas takes you there

Once I really believed
There was nothing out there for the lost and lonely
But a voice in my head kept banging on my heart
Says you're not the only one

But it kills me

Tick, tock, you don't stop
You don't fade
You just stay
But I'll do it all again

Tick, tock, you don't stop
You don't fade
You just stay
But I'll do it all again

Feel...

Can you tell me how you feel
When you turn on your tv
When you see me singing through my tears
I've saved up all these years
Can you tell me what you see
When you read the magazines
Do you see yourself in me
When you read the magazines
When the DJ plays this song
Can you tell me what you hear

And I hope feel the way we felt
When you put us all through hell
Can you tell me how you feel now
How do you feel, how do you feel
Tell me how you sleep at night
Do you take those pills like me
Or do you toss and turn and lay your head on the pillow
and fall asleep cause you just don't care, how do you feel

And now I'm in your face
And you feel that empty space
Why did we how did we come to fall from grace
Falling, falling
Didn't you just hear us calling out
No there's nothing left to say
Cause you shouldn't have stayed away
No man leaves his flesh and blood this way

And I hope feel the way we felt
When you put us all through hell
Can you tell me how you feel now
How do you feel, how do you feel
Tell me how you sleep at night
Do you take those pills like me
Or do you toss and turn and lay your head on the pillow
and fall asleep cause you just don't care, how do you feel

It took a crowd for me to see
That it really wasn't me
The swaying crowd is the cleansing rain
It took the pain away
And I hope you'll find yourself alone
In a million dollar home
You will be stuck
With a heart like a rock
I hope your run out of luck fool
How do you feel now
Does it hurt, does it hurt
How do you feel now
I'm just wonderin' how it feels

Sacrificing me...

Who's the one that made you happy?
Who's the one that always makes you laugh?
Who's the reason you are smiling?
And dragged you through these times so rough

I was the one that made you happy
I was the one that eased the pain
But I'm the reason you're crying now
My own tears scattered by the rain

You can sacrifice me
You can set me free
You can be who you want to be

Deeper than deep you took me on a trip
Shared your wildest dreams and more
You dared me to express my feelings to you
I never felt that need before

But suddenly you needed freedom
You felt the need to break free
You started drowning in your sorrow
You didn't want to know I had the key

You can sacrifice me
You can set me free....