Picture...

What would happen if my heart stopped beating?

Nothing 'cause i can't let this go although i still can't find the words to tell you,
I don't wanna be alone, but now i feel like i don't know you,

I've always been pretending,
My heart still pleads for something you've once given me,
Being alone is not an option,
Why is letting go so hard?

Yeah i've moved on,
But what now?... what once was, will never be again!
I can't turn back the hands of time and make things alright,
Nohing's going to change that,
So why all the pretence if we both know the truth?
Why bother?
Why make things harder on ourselves?

Feels as if I keep trying to answer the same questions again and again,
Going round and round in circles all the bloody time,
Why should i waste my time on you anymore?
What's wrong with me?

Saw a picture of you today...
How can a picture bring back so many memories?
How can a picture speak louder than words?
How can a picture make me feel warm and good inside everytime I look at it?

Why does a simple picture make me feel the way i do now?
Why did you come back now?
Why me?

Oh God... so many questions.. no time... too scared to get hurt again... what shall I do?....

Thoughts...

Thoughts on my mind...
Thinking of new beginings every day...
Thinking of new adventures...

Still trying to think of new ways to let myself go...
Trying to move on from a life in the past...
Trying to move on looking for something new...
A new way to recreate things i've lost,
A new way to gain things i've never had...

Trying to think of what lies in tomorrow and preparing myself for the challenges it brings,
Trying to imagine a life with no pain or headaches,
A life where my happiness is the most important thing to person,
Waiting for that someone to find me...
Take me away to that place i once knew,
The place only few know....

Lost in desire,
Lost in temptation,
Lost for lust,
Lost for love....

A New Year...

Another year.... gone,
Another year... just begun,

What holds ahead no one can tell...
New things to experience,
New things to see,
New things to live,
New problems with new solutions,
Old problems still without solutions,
New things to keep my mind busy,
Old things that still keep my mind busy,

A new year usually means a new life,
Why?

I'm finally hapy with the life i lead,
Things couldn't get any better,
I'm finally living the life i've always wanted,
I'm finally making myself into someone,
Working hard on myself and pushing myself to new limits,
Being surronded by the people i love,
By the things i want to be surrounded by,
I don't have to put up with anything i don't want to,

Now i can finally say... I'm someone worth being...
I am me,
Here i am....