You and me

Here I am,
Standing right in front of you,
Waiting fir the moment you see me,
Realise that I'm all you've been waiting for,

I've known you for a long time now,
Got to know you,
Seen who you really are,
Yet here we are standing face to face,
It seems as if we keep avoiding what's really inevitable,
We have our little secret,
Pretend that things are as simple as we make them,
If only they knew,
We're surrounded by those we consider to be our best friends,
Yet when we're together things seem so much different,
We exchange looks and observe eachother,
Feeling a little jealous when our attention is wanted somewhere else with someone else,
I've seen the way you look at me,
And you know the way I look at you,
We're always longing for someone to take the first step,
But we can't,
We know what would happen if that happened,
Things could never go back to normal,
We've stepped over that limit a long time ago,
And now there is no way back,
We've got to keep this up,
Until one of us moves on and finds someone else,
But will we be able to do it?

Forget all that's been done and said?
Forget the times we've been together?
Move on as if nothing ever happened?

Well here I am,
Standing in front of you,
Gathering all my courage,
Telling you,
I think I love you...

For all that it's worth,
I hope that some day you will know...

What about...?

What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things that really mattered?
What if I ran through hoops of disaster?
No one would care if we never made it
We're in this alone
So why don't we face it
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me...what about us?
How can I give this love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It's never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we should keep calling
I'll take the rivers rise
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

Dedicated to all those who really understand...

Heroís e Heroínas...

O que são Heroís e Heroínas...?

Acho que todos nós os temos...

Mas não me refiro àqueles heroís como o Super-Homem nem o Homem-aranha... isso são heroís fictícios,
Refiro-me aos heroís e heroínas do dia-a-dia... daqueles que existem em pessoa...

Para mim eles são pessoas que sempre olhei e admirei como exemplo de ser e fazer as coisas,
São pessoas das quais tenho o maior respeito e que admiro, não só por aquilo que fazem, mas também pelo significado que teêm e que sempre tiveram...

Os meus heroís estiveram sempre comigo e só ultimamente... há uns aninhos para cá é que lhes dou esta designação porque realmente só nessa altura é que consegui ver aquilo que realmente são e sempre foram....

Os meus heroís são os meus pais... =D

O meu pai... a minha "réplica"...(mais propriamente eu a réplica dele)... O meu maior heroí...
O orgulho e o respeito que tenho por ele tanto como filha como também pessoa é indescritível...
Orgulho-me por ser filha dele e por saber que ele se orgulha de mim porque finalmente "concretizei" um dos maiores sonhos dele,
Admiro-o pela vida que tem e que teve... que em muitas situações e alturas as coisas estavam longe de serem fáceis... muito pelo contrário... mas acabava sempre por dar a volta à situação...
É o pai mais babado pelas filhas... isso eu sei... o que fará pelos futuros netos!?....lololol

A minha mãe... pessoa que na minha adolescência pensava que dificilmente nos iriamos dar bem...
Hoje em dia somos melhores amigas.. =D
Como dizem os velhos ditados "por trás de um grande homem existe sempre uma grande mulher" e que "uma mulher não se mede aos palmos"...
A realidade é mesmo essa... Minha mãe que durante muito tempo sempre teve de representar mais do que um papel na minha vida...Quem dera a muitas raparigas da minha idade serem como ela...Quem me dera a mim...
Admiro-a pela sua persistência e paciência para me aturar nos meus "momentos de crise",
Por estar sempre ali quando as coisas não correm bem ou quando faço borrada...=S
Foi com ela que aprendi muita coisa e continuo a aprender....

Os meus heroís são as pessoas na minha vida... as que me são mais chegadas do que qualquer outra e que ninguém vai conseguir substituí-los...
É preciso muito, mas memso muito para chegar aos calcanhares deles...

Com todo o respeito e admiração que tenho por eles deixo aqui a dedicatória dedicada unica exclusivamente para eles....

Love, War and Destiny...

Is everything fair in Love and War?

Maybe things aren't as they are supposed to be,
Maybe the ending was mean't to be different,
Maybe we realised too late that it wasn't mean't to be,
Maybe we didn't fight enough fo what we wanted,

There used to be a time when things were easier to get through,
A time when we knew what to do and how to deal with things,
A time where things just seemed to fit...
A time where we were inseperable,

We were our own army,
We knew exactly what to do,
We were a team, an army against anyone who tried to put themselves between us,

But then came a time when you lost your will to fight,
Your will to stand-up for what was yours, ours.. what we fought so much to keep,

There came a time when it was just me,
Fighting, trying to keep intact what was rightfully mine,
There came a time when I too became tired of trying to keep things afloat,
To keep things ok and good,

I lost my army..

Maybe this was my fate... my destiny,
Love is it's own war,
You need an army to keep things and fight for them,

In war only one thing matters...winning and knowing you did all you could to win and doing your best,

I look back and i'm proud of what i managed to achieve,
I'm proud of loving you the way I did,
I'm proud because now i'm a better person for doing so,
I'm proud 'cause I managed to make someone happy for a while,

This is now my destiny... to look back and say "I did good... I can finally move on..."

Here i come... my destiny awauts me...

Picture...

What would happen if my heart stopped beating?

Nothing 'cause i can't let this go although i still can't find the words to tell you,
I don't wanna be alone, but now i feel like i don't know you,

I've always been pretending,
My heart still pleads for something you've once given me,
Being alone is not an option,
Why is letting go so hard?

Yeah i've moved on,
But what now?... what once was, will never be again!
I can't turn back the hands of time and make things alright,
Nohing's going to change that,
So why all the pretence if we both know the truth?
Why bother?
Why make things harder on ourselves?

Feels as if I keep trying to answer the same questions again and again,
Going round and round in circles all the bloody time,
Why should i waste my time on you anymore?
What's wrong with me?

Saw a picture of you today...
How can a picture bring back so many memories?
How can a picture speak louder than words?
How can a picture make me feel warm and good inside everytime I look at it?

Why does a simple picture make me feel the way i do now?
Why did you come back now?
Why me?

Oh God... so many questions.. no time... too scared to get hurt again... what shall I do?....

Thoughts...

Thoughts on my mind...
Thinking of new beginings every day...
Thinking of new adventures...

Still trying to think of new ways to let myself go...
Trying to move on from a life in the past...
Trying to move on looking for something new...
A new way to recreate things i've lost,
A new way to gain things i've never had...

Trying to think of what lies in tomorrow and preparing myself for the challenges it brings,
Trying to imagine a life with no pain or headaches,
A life where my happiness is the most important thing to person,
Waiting for that someone to find me...
Take me away to that place i once knew,
The place only few know....

Lost in desire,
Lost in temptation,
Lost for lust,
Lost for love....

A New Year...

Another year.... gone,
Another year... just begun,

What holds ahead no one can tell...
New things to experience,
New things to see,
New things to live,
New problems with new solutions,
Old problems still without solutions,
New things to keep my mind busy,
Old things that still keep my mind busy,

A new year usually means a new life,
Why?

I'm finally hapy with the life i lead,
Things couldn't get any better,
I'm finally living the life i've always wanted,
I'm finally making myself into someone,
Working hard on myself and pushing myself to new limits,
Being surronded by the people i love,
By the things i want to be surrounded by,
I don't have to put up with anything i don't want to,

Now i can finally say... I'm someone worth being...
I am me,
Here i am....